God's Wisdom..

{a single pink rose for our precious angel granddaughter Eden}


This saying came across in my memories today on face book.

It really made me stop and ponder the ways of God.

I know He could have prevented the loss of Eden,

but He chose not to.

The first thing I want to ask Him when I get to heaven is

WHY???

We just have to trust that His ways our higher than our ways
and that He knows what is best for every single one of us.

That is not always easy at all.
We are human and we want answers.



Our grief has been profound since losing her...

our 10th grandchild...

EDEN RAIN

back in May.

I have been taught since a wee girl that

 God doesn't give us more than we can handle..

that just is NOT true.

 I have come to understand in the past several months that HE DOES
 give us more than we can handle because that makes us turn to Him
to carry us through. Otherwise we would think we can do it all on our own.

Also, since Eden passed I have heard well meaning people say:

 Just be grateful for the kids/grand kids you DO have...

SERIOUSLY?

WHO says that??!!
We are very grateful, but that doesn't lessen the pain or the grief

 and

let me ask you this:


"which one of your children/grandchildren would you want to give up?"
Also, the well meaning, but awful phrase:

"you can just have more children."
PLEASE do not say this to anyone who has lost a child no matter the circumstances!

While it may be true...

They wanted

THIS child,

they loved

THIS child,

she carried

THIS child

they had dreams,

so many dreams...

 for
THIS child

and they are heartbroken!


I could go on and on, but I will leave you with this saying:


My child{grandchild} died.
I don't need advice.
All I need is for you
 to gently close your mouth,
open wide your heart and
walk with me until
I can see in color again.

-Angela Miller

Please check out Still Standing website. It is a great resource
for grieving parents.

{I didn't mean for this to sound snarky or that I am berating any of you.
Just kindly asking people to stop and think....}


It's been 2 months, 3 weeks and 5 days...

A Memorial for Eden

It's been 2 months...1 week...and 6 days...

If you have read my previous posts you know by now that we lost our 10th grandchild,
a precious little girl, Eden Rain to stillbirth in May. It was such a shock to all of us and
 we are still coming to terms with how this could happen to a perfect and beautiful child.

Her parents {my son and daughter-in-law) had a brick engraved with her name and two hearts
and had it added to a beautiful park as a memorial to our little baby Eden.

It is such a beautiful little park. I'm glad they chose this one.

(I added little pink butterflies on each picture so you can see where her brick is)

Her brick is laid in the middle of two other bricks that have her aunts names on them.

Their family calls it...

Butterfly Park

...because they always see lots of butterflies there.

This gorgeous fountain stands at one end of the park.

 It is so nice to come here and sit on one of the benches on a nice,cool day or a day when
 rain is coming down ever so gentle...

...after all...

her name IS

EDEN RAIN.

We love her and miss her so...

*************************************

This is the latest poem that I have written :

I think of you daily 

And I'm wondering again 

Who you would look like 

Who you would have been

Are you smiling a lot?

What color are your eyes?

What are you doing now 

Since we said our goodbyes?

Is heaven full of beauty? 

Are you loving it there? 

Do the angels tell you 

When I whisper a prayer?

Do they sing to you Eden 

Their sweet lullabies? 

Do they hold you and kiss you 

Up there in the sky?

I know in my heart you're 

the most beautiful one there 

With your daddy's little nose 

And your mommy's dark hair

I wish heaven could send 

down photos of you 

So that we could see 

All the things that you do.

Your wings must be tiny 

And glistening white 

And to see Jesus hold you 

Must be quite a sight.

I wonder if the angels 

Take turns holding you too 

Because I'm sure they love babies 

Just as much as we do

"This baby is special" 

I can just hear one say 

"Because she came to us 

On her birth day..".

"She'll never know pain 

Or heartache or woe 

But her family on earth 

Still misses her so"

"So Eden, flutter your wings 

A little extra today 

And maybe they'll feel it 

And look up and say"

"Did you feel that soft breeze 

And that light gentle rain? 

I just know it's our Eden 

Saying hello once again".

Written by Grandma Sandi Boothman ...July 19, 2016

A Memorial for Eden

If you have read my previous posts you know by now that we lost our 10th grandchild,
a precious little girl, Eden Rain to stillbirth in May. It was such a shock to all of us and
 we are still coming to terms with how this could happen to a perfect and beautiful child.

Her parents {my son and daughter-in-law) had a brick engraved with her name and two hearts
and had it added to a beautiful park as a memorial to our little baby Eden.

It is such a beautiful little park. I'm glad they chose this one.

(I added little pink butterflies on each picture so you can see where her brick is)

Her brick is laid in the middle of two other bricks that have her aunts names on them.

Their family calls it...

Butterfly Park

...because they always see lots of butterflies there.

This gorgeous fountain stands at one end of the park.

 It is so nice to come here and sit on one of the benches on a nice,cool day or a day when
 rain is coming down ever so gentle...

...after all...

her name IS

EDEN RAIN.

We love her and miss her so...

*************************************

This is the latest poem that I have written :

I think of you daily 

And I'm wondering again 

Who you would look like 

Who you would have been

Are you smiling a lot?

What color are your eyes?

What are you doing now 

Since we said our goodbyes?

Is heaven full of beauty? 

Are you loving it there? 

Do the angels tell you 

When I whisper a prayer?

Do they sing to you Eden 

Their sweet lullabies? 

Do they hold you and kiss you 

Up there in the sky?

I know in my heart you're 

the most beautiful one there 

With your daddy's little nose 

And your mommy's dark hair

I wish heaven could send 

down photos of you 

So that we could see 

All the things that you do.

Your wings must be tiny 

And glistening white 

And to see Jesus hold you 

Must be quite a sight.

I wonder if the angels 

Take turns holding you too 

Because I'm sure they love babies 

Just as much as we do

"This baby is special" 

I can just hear one say 

"Because she came to us 

On her birth day..".

"She'll never know pain 

Or heartache or woe 

But her family on earth 

Still misses her so"

"So Eden, flutter your wings 

A little extra today 

And maybe they'll feel it 

And look up and say"

"Did you feel that soft breeze 

And that light gentle rain? 

I just know it's our Eden 

Saying hello once again".

Written by Grandma Sandi Boothman ...July 19, 2016