Eden's first birthday in heaven ~

Happy 1st Birthday in Heaven Eden Rain ~

Happy birthday to you in heaven
Our precious granddaughter Eden Rain
We heard the angels are throwing a party
To celebrate your birth and beautiful name.

They must be very excited
I'm sure they have baked a cake
And strewn flower petals all around
Getting ready to celebrate.

They have some presents to give you
That we just know you will love
We sent all your gifts to heaven
On the wings of a pure, white dove.

There's a box filled with love from your mama
All tied up with glittery strings
Inside there are one million kisses
And a new pair of soft angel wings.

There's a box of hugs from your daddy
He misses his little girl so
He's added some dreams and a rainbow
Along with pretty ribbons and bows.

Your sisters gifts are so special
They had to be just right
They worked so very hard on them
Sometimes even into the night.

Their box is the one that sparkles,
Because girls love nice, pretty things
They've included some stardust and wishes
 And lullabies for the angels to sing.

They also put in several handfuls

Of soft feathers for your bed

Then they included something so special

It's a new crown for your sweet little head.

Grandpa and I sent a simple gift

A sweet pair of new dancing shoes

You know how practical we are

To send something you can use.

So when you take those first little steps

Up there on the streets of gold

You can feel us all sending our love

Since you can't be here to hold.

We pray your birthday is very special

And that you know just how loved you are

You're our beautiful and precious angel

Dwelling in heaven among the stars.

God's Wisdom..

{a single pink rose for our precious angel granddaughter Eden}


This saying came across in my memories today on face book.

It really made me stop and ponder the ways of God.

I know He could have prevented the loss of Eden,

but He chose not to.

The first thing I want to ask Him when I get to heaven is

WHY???

We just have to trust that His ways our higher than our ways
and that He knows what is best for every single one of us.

That is not always easy at all.
We are human and we want answers.



Our grief has been profound since losing her...

our 10th grandchild...

EDEN RAIN

back in May.

I have been taught since a wee girl that

 God doesn't give us more than we can handle..

that just is NOT true.

 I have come to understand in the past several months that HE DOES
 give us more than we can handle because that makes us turn to Him
to carry us through. Otherwise we would think we can do it all on our own.

Also, since Eden passed I have heard well meaning people say:

 Just be grateful for the kids/grand kids you DO have...

SERIOUSLY?

WHO says that??!!
We are very grateful, but that doesn't lessen the pain or the grief

 and

let me ask you this:


"which one of your children/grandchildren would you want to give up?"
Also, the well meaning, but awful phrase:

"you can just have more children."
PLEASE do not say this to anyone who has lost a child no matter the circumstances!

While it may be true...

They wanted

THIS child,

they loved

THIS child,

she carried

THIS child

they had dreams,

so many dreams...

 for
THIS child

and they are heartbroken!


I could go on and on, but I will leave you with this saying:


My child{grandchild} died.
I don't need advice.
All I need is for you
 to gently close your mouth,
open wide your heart and
walk with me until
I can see in color again.

-Angela Miller

Please check out Still Standing website. It is a great resource
for grieving parents.

{I didn't mean for this to sound snarky or that I am berating any of you.
Just kindly asking people to stop and think....}


It's been 2 months, 3 weeks and 5 days...

Our Angel Granddaughter Eden Rain

The past 18 days have been hard...so very hard.

We have questioned WHY over and over and over...

This mommy adores her children...every. single.one.

Eden is so perfect...couldn't be more perfect.

Daddy {our son} loves his girls very much.

Eden is no exception.

He loves her dearly.

Grandma and Grandpa saying goodbye...hardest goodbye E.V.E.R.

They named her Eden Rain...such a beautiful name.

It is hard to tell children that their little sister didn't make it.

Mommy's parents...they have suffered great loss in their lives
 as they each also lost a daughter in the past. This is another great loss that
is hard to fathom. Why do some families have to endure so much I will
never understand. If you think about it please say a prayer for them. 

If you look close you will see a little teardrop on sister Annika's eyelash.
The girls were so excited to welcome Eden into their family.

8 lbs. 2.9 ounces...beautiful baby girl

How do we go on from here? I don't know. I don't have any answers. We are looking for answers as to what
went wrong and we pray that we find some...somehow... someway.

An organization called

Sufficient Grace Ministries 

was called into the hospital when we lost our precious Eden.

They took all these beautiful photos that we will always cherish.

They gave mommy a "comfort bear" to hold when her arms
ache to hold her precious baby.

Matching bracelets for mommy and baby.

They gave the girls each a little bear.

 They also gave books, blankets and a beautiful white dress.

 They made an impression of her little hand in clay.

They also did hand and footprints.

Everything they did and gave was FREE.
If you check out their site you must read their book called:

Sufficient Grace. 

I couldn't put it down.

 God is doing a mighty work through this ministry.



God was present in that hospital room through Sufficient Grace Ministries

and

He continues to hold us during this difficult time.


We covet your continued prayers.

I miss you Eden Rain...so very much...angel kisses
straight to heaven for you...

Mourning our beautiful granddaughter Eden Rain

On Saturday May 21, 2016 our beautiful granddaughter was stillborn.

She never took one breath and we never got to hear her cry or see her open her beautiful little eyes.

It has rocked us to the core and it is something that no family should ever have to go through.

Labor was progressing fine and then something went horribly wrong.

You have never known such heartbreaking sorrow until you watch a mommy and daddy bathe their
 lifeless little daughter and handle her with such tender loving care.

The funeral was today...we shed many tears and we cried as we watched her mommy and daddy
carry her tiny little casket down the steps and out into their own SUV...

the only time she will ride with them as a family.

Mommy and daddy named her

EDEN RAIN BOOTHMAN

Please pray for all of us in the days, weeks, months and years to come.

We will never be the same.