God's Wisdom..

{a single pink rose for our precious angel granddaughter Eden}


This saying came across in my memories today on face book.

It really made me stop and ponder the ways of God.

I know He could have prevented the loss of Eden,

but He chose not to.

The first thing I want to ask Him when I get to heaven is

WHY???

We just have to trust that His ways our higher than our ways
and that He knows what is best for every single one of us.

That is not always easy at all.
We are human and we want answers.



Our grief has been profound since losing her...

our 10th grandchild...

EDEN RAIN

back in May.

I have been taught since a wee girl that

 God doesn't give us more than we can handle..

that just is NOT true.

 I have come to understand in the past several months that HE DOES
 give us more than we can handle because that makes us turn to Him
to carry us through. Otherwise we would think we can do it all on our own.

Also, since Eden passed I have heard well meaning people say:

 Just be grateful for the kids/grand kids you DO have...

SERIOUSLY?

WHO says that??!!
We are very grateful, but that doesn't lessen the pain or the grief

 and

let me ask you this:


"which one of your children/grandchildren would you want to give up?"
Also, the well meaning, but awful phrase:

"you can just have more children."
PLEASE do not say this to anyone who has lost a child no matter the circumstances!

While it may be true...

They wanted

THIS child,

they loved

THIS child,

she carried

THIS child

they had dreams,

so many dreams...

 for
THIS child

and they are heartbroken!


I could go on and on, but I will leave you with this saying:


My child{grandchild} died.
I don't need advice.
All I need is for you
 to gently close your mouth,
open wide your heart and
walk with me until
I can see in color again.

-Angela Miller

Please check out Still Standing website. It is a great resource
for grieving parents.

{I didn't mean for this to sound snarky or that I am berating any of you.
Just kindly asking people to stop and think....}


It's been 2 months, 3 weeks and 5 days...

A Memorial for Eden

It's been 2 months...1 week...and 6 days...

If you have read my previous posts you know by now that we lost our 10th grandchild,
a precious little girl, Eden Rain to stillbirth in May. It was such a shock to all of us and
 we are still coming to terms with how this could happen to a perfect and beautiful child.

Her parents {my son and daughter-in-law) had a brick engraved with her name and two hearts
and had it added to a beautiful park as a memorial to our little baby Eden.

It is such a beautiful little park. I'm glad they chose this one.

(I added little pink butterflies on each picture so you can see where her brick is)

Her brick is laid in the middle of two other bricks that have her aunts names on them.

Their family calls it...

Butterfly Park

...because they always see lots of butterflies there.

This gorgeous fountain stands at one end of the park.

 It is so nice to come here and sit on one of the benches on a nice,cool day or a day when
 rain is coming down ever so gentle...

...after all...

her name IS

EDEN RAIN.

We love her and miss her so...

*************************************

This is the latest poem that I have written :

I think of you daily 

And I'm wondering again 

Who you would look like 

Who you would have been

Are you smiling a lot?

What color are your eyes?

What are you doing now 

Since we said our goodbyes?

Is heaven full of beauty? 

Are you loving it there? 

Do the angels tell you 

When I whisper a prayer?

Do they sing to you Eden 

Their sweet lullabies? 

Do they hold you and kiss you 

Up there in the sky?

I know in my heart you're 

the most beautiful one there 

With your daddy's little nose 

And your mommy's dark hair

I wish heaven could send 

down photos of you 

So that we could see 

All the things that you do.

Your wings must be tiny 

And glistening white 

And to see Jesus hold you 

Must be quite a sight.

I wonder if the angels 

Take turns holding you too 

Because I'm sure they love babies 

Just as much as we do

"This baby is special" 

I can just hear one say 

"Because she came to us 

On her birth day..".

"She'll never know pain 

Or heartache or woe 

But her family on earth 

Still misses her so"

"So Eden, flutter your wings 

A little extra today 

And maybe they'll feel it 

And look up and say"

"Did you feel that soft breeze 

And that light gentle rain? 

I just know it's our Eden 

Saying hello once again".

Written by Grandma Sandi Boothman ...July 19, 2016

A Memorial for Eden

If you have read my previous posts you know by now that we lost our 10th grandchild,
a precious little girl, Eden Rain to stillbirth in May. It was such a shock to all of us and
 we are still coming to terms with how this could happen to a perfect and beautiful child.

Her parents {my son and daughter-in-law) had a brick engraved with her name and two hearts
and had it added to a beautiful park as a memorial to our little baby Eden.

It is such a beautiful little park. I'm glad they chose this one.

(I added little pink butterflies on each picture so you can see where her brick is)

Her brick is laid in the middle of two other bricks that have her aunts names on them.

Their family calls it...

Butterfly Park

...because they always see lots of butterflies there.

This gorgeous fountain stands at one end of the park.

 It is so nice to come here and sit on one of the benches on a nice,cool day or a day when
 rain is coming down ever so gentle...

...after all...

her name IS

EDEN RAIN.

We love her and miss her so...

*************************************

This is the latest poem that I have written :

I think of you daily 

And I'm wondering again 

Who you would look like 

Who you would have been

Are you smiling a lot?

What color are your eyes?

What are you doing now 

Since we said our goodbyes?

Is heaven full of beauty? 

Are you loving it there? 

Do the angels tell you 

When I whisper a prayer?

Do they sing to you Eden 

Their sweet lullabies? 

Do they hold you and kiss you 

Up there in the sky?

I know in my heart you're 

the most beautiful one there 

With your daddy's little nose 

And your mommy's dark hair

I wish heaven could send 

down photos of you 

So that we could see 

All the things that you do.

Your wings must be tiny 

And glistening white 

And to see Jesus hold you 

Must be quite a sight.

I wonder if the angels 

Take turns holding you too 

Because I'm sure they love babies 

Just as much as we do

"This baby is special" 

I can just hear one say 

"Because she came to us 

On her birth day..".

"She'll never know pain 

Or heartache or woe 

But her family on earth 

Still misses her so"

"So Eden, flutter your wings 

A little extra today 

And maybe they'll feel it 

And look up and say"

"Did you feel that soft breeze 

And that light gentle rain? 

I just know it's our Eden 

Saying hello once again".

Written by Grandma Sandi Boothman ...July 19, 2016

So thankful for your thoughts and prayers...

I can't even begin to tell you how much comfort and support we have received from family and friends
in the past three weeks since our beautiful granddaughter Eden Rain was stillborn. All I can say is

you. are. amazing.

God has met financial needs for my son and his family during very difficult time and many of you have also
 sent gifts for them, the girls and myself.

 I can't say

thank you

enough. My son said "wow there are so many people who love and care for us".

Y.E.S.

I received the necklace above from a dear blog friend who lives in New York.
We have never even met face to face, but only have communicated online.

I was so touched when I opened this keepsake that she had made just for me.

I LOVE IT !

and...I cried.
yes, I did...I've been doing a lot of that lately and I am sure I will do more
in the days, months, years ahead.

She also sent gifts for the girls and a financial gift as well.

I have received gifts of money from many of you for my family and we so appreciate it.

You have shown God's love in tangible ways and we say

THANK YOU!

I have written several poems and cried through every single one of them.

It is helping me heal although we will never get over this loss.

We will look for ways to incorporate sweet Edens memory into our everyday lives.

I created a facebook page called

Prayers for the Boothman Family

if you will click on the link above it will take you there.

It includes the poems that I have written to date and I am sure it will
include many more in the years to come.

We so covet your continued thoughts and prayers for our precious family.

May God bless each and every one of you!

Our Angel Granddaughter Eden Rain

The past 18 days have been hard...so very hard.

We have questioned WHY over and over and over...

This mommy adores her children...every. single.one.

Eden is so perfect...couldn't be more perfect.

Daddy {our son} loves his girls very much.

Eden is no exception.

He loves her dearly.

Grandma and Grandpa saying goodbye...hardest goodbye E.V.E.R.

They named her Eden Rain...such a beautiful name.

It is hard to tell children that their little sister didn't make it.

Mommy's parents...they have suffered great loss in their lives
 as they each also lost a daughter in the past. This is another great loss that
is hard to fathom. Why do some families have to endure so much I will
never understand. If you think about it please say a prayer for them. 

If you look close you will see a little teardrop on sister Annika's eyelash.
The girls were so excited to welcome Eden into their family.

8 lbs. 2.9 ounces...beautiful baby girl

How do we go on from here? I don't know. I don't have any answers. We are looking for answers as to what
went wrong and we pray that we find some...somehow... someway.

An organization called

Sufficient Grace Ministries 

was called into the hospital when we lost our precious Eden.

They took all these beautiful photos that we will always cherish.

They gave mommy a "comfort bear" to hold when her arms
ache to hold her precious baby.

Matching bracelets for mommy and baby.

They gave the girls each a little bear.

 They also gave books, blankets and a beautiful white dress.

 They made an impression of her little hand in clay.

They also did hand and footprints.

Everything they did and gave was FREE.
If you check out their site you must read their book called:

Sufficient Grace. 

I couldn't put it down.

 God is doing a mighty work through this ministry.



God was present in that hospital room through Sufficient Grace Ministries

and

He continues to hold us during this difficult time.


We covet your continued prayers.

I miss you Eden Rain...so very much...angel kisses
straight to heaven for you...